Emerson Worst The Moonlight in Despair

April 16th 2026

    I want to just talk about this experience I've had, Especially since I've experienced it more than once. Back in high school, my senior year, I was feeling stressed, ashamed, and depressed. I hadn't been on top of my college applications, and I was feeling all around hopeless for the future. I felt so early on that I had failed myself and all my dreams. Like I had wasted all my time before it began. Absolutely pathetic. I was ready to go to bed that night, but before I did, just as the light was turned off and I was about to get in bed, I saw something. The Moon, brightly shining through my window. It wasn't a full moon, it was more of a gibbous, but still, all I could do was stand there in awe. The moonlight shone through my window, illuminating my dark room. My eyes had perfectly adjusted to the darkness, and it felt like someone had turned on the lights. All I could do was gaze at the moon for a few minutes, before I finally went to bed, in a much better state than I had entered.
    I bring this up because just recently, I've had another experience like that. On March 31st, I had realized that a bunch of my reports were not accepted, and notices were sent days in advance. I had not seen them, so the fault was entirely on me. Again, I felt like a hopeless, pathetic failure. I had to take some time to lie in my bed, cry a few tears, and then get ready for the President's Speaker event. The first thing I saw when I walked outside, was the Moon. Not a full moon, more of a gibbous, and shining radiantly over me. Once again, it had come back to comfort me. I get the feeling it always will. Whenever I feel at my worst, whenever I feel pathetic, I believe the Moon will be there, and help me through the pain.

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